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the night is getting older
there's static on the tv
and she's lying on the sofa
cats crawl over her

jenny's in the garage
she's got the car in neutral
she rolls it out so quietly
it's saturday as usual
it always is

and me I'm in my bedroom drawing in my notebook
cause my hand thinks I'm an artist
but my heart knows I'm a poet
It's just words they mean so little to me
so little to me
so little to me
so little to me
so little to me
so little to me
so little to me
so little to me
that i can't seem to deal with something more
when everyone'll fall back

daddy's in the backyard
his hands are getting dirty
and momma's is in the kitchen and her cake says that I'm thirteen
another year

my brother went to college to become a doctor
and if he studies hard enough
he'll end up just like papa
who hates his life

and me i'm in the bathroom
crying out my eyelids cause it's hard to be a man
when you're scared like a little kid
the world's become a little too mean
a little too mean
a little too mean
a little too mean
a little too mean
a little too mean
a little too mean

and i can't see the point of patient love
when everyone just wants to get fucked


[this blog was meant to be posted on saturday]

Can you spot me?

What a day....

Today, i went to a cosplay rebellion thingy, dressed as lister from red dwarf. Despite the 32 degree heat in a ski jacket and fur hat, i soldiered on and had the time of my life. i met a boy who looked and sounded like the doctor, and this absolutely made my life. we dominated the city, sung britney spears with screamo voices and raced wheelchairs in the middle of the city. i met new friends, discovered a side of old friends i never would have expected and just had the most uplifting experience.

Today was the kind of day that you'd never forget, a day where everyone was nice, and you could just go up and hug strangers, and it will stick out to me as one of the best experiences i've had in brisbane.

"Are you meant to be the doctor?" said Annabelle, readjusting her deerstalker carefully, "No, I am!" said a charmingly offended Doctor. As they exchanged high fives, Annabelle said "I'm going to convince myself you're real, and just have a breakdown. The boy dressed as the doctor began inspecting his hand ever so quirkily, and said "Aren't I real? Hmm.."

Annabelle then proceeded to show him her fourth doctor scarf, and they exchanged high fives.




I went to see New Moon a few days ago. Lord help me.

It was cheese-tastic, but suffice it to say, there was much laughter, we were loudly shushed by some Twi-hards, and when wolf boy took his shirt off, I think 100 women ovulated all at once.

But there was something else.. something kind of screwy happening. I couldn't quite put my finger on it while I was in the theater, but once I got out, it hit me.

According to the National Domestic Violence hotline, these are some signs that you may be in an emotionally or physically abusive relationship.

Does your partner:
* Look at you or act in ways that scare you?

* Control what you do, who you see or talk to or where you go?
"Stay away from the werewolves. I love you."

* Make all of the decisions?

* Act like the abuse is no big deal, it’s your fault, or even deny doing it?
"If I wasn't so attracted to you, I wouldn't have to break up with you."

* Threaten to commit suicide?
"I just can't live without you. In fact, I'll run to Italy and try suicide by vampire if anything happens to you."

* Threaten to kill you?
On their first date.

These are some more signs of an abusive relationship.
Has your partner...
* Tried to isolate you from family or friends.
Bella doesn't have time for anyone else!

* Damaged property when angry (thrown objects, punched walls, kicked doors, etc.).

* Pushed, slapped, bitten, kicked or choked you.
Does tossing her through a glass table count?

* Abandoned you in a dangerous or unfamiliar place.
"We're breaking up. And I'm leaving you in the forest."

* Scared you by driving recklessly.

* Forced you to leave your home.
She had to run away with him to flee from the other vampires in the first movie, and she had to drop everything and run to Italy in the second.

* Prevented you from calling police or seeking medical attention.
Check. Even in the hospital, nothing is a big deal.

* Views women as objects and believes in rigid gender roles.
Well, they are Mormon... (I know, I know, cheap shot.)

* Accuses you of cheating or is often jealous of your outside relationships.
Check, wolf-boy.

Now I'm pissed. According to the NDVH, "If you answered ‘yes’ to even one of these questions, you may be in an abusive relationship." This list is fifteen.

In addition, Bella is quite literally a blank slate, an empty vessel. This created much mirth from our group-- "I can't read her thoughts." "That's because there AREN'T ANY!" "Heeheeheeheeheehee." "Shhhhhh!" But Bella seems to have no purpose, other than to be loved by someone, anyone. When she isn't around either Edward or Jacob, she mopes around and does... nothing. I was actually excited when she actually took initiative and yelled back at the werewolves.

Then I was pissed again, since the werewolves apparently also go for abusive relationships. The main wolf-dude lives with his girlfriend, who he f**king mauled once, because she provoked him into turning into a werewolf. "Well, he lost it, and she still has the scars."

Really. Let's go back to our list... actually, I don't need the list. f**k YOU. f**k YOU SO HARD. Domestic violence is not romantic, and I don't care how much you say she started it, you don't hit your girlfriend. EVER. If the other women in your tribe had the sense that God gave mayonnaise, wolf boy would be lucky to *only* go to jail. Wait-- there don't appear to be any other women in the tribe. *sigh*

And this movie is the one that made $140 million bucks in one weekend. Bigger than Dark Knight. Maybe it's just that I'm older and (hopefully) wiser than the characters and thus out of this movie's target demographic, or maybe I'm a humorless feminist, but knowing that zillions of girls are seeing this getting the idea that a seriously unhealthy relationship is somehow the equivalent of true love -- that is profoundly disturbing. Far scarier than a werewolf.

what what?

Hey there, it's been a while.
Today was the day my account officially was meant to be wiped, but no. I went a little insane, and dug up my cherub forums and lj account.

If any of you read my blog regularly, you'll notice i deleted some lame posts.

Well, i'll be back when something interesting happens.


Waynes World rewatch count: 3

Waynes World II rewatch count: 2

I live a great life.

Writer's Block: How Rude!

What's the rudest thing you've ever asked anyone? And what's the rudest thing you've ever been asked?

I've been asked some crackers, such as: Are you a boy or a girl? Which I answered with: Guess. The person replied with: Boy?

I once asked someone where their dad was. They replied with: Six Feet Under.

If a magic genie told you your calories wouldn't count for 24 hours, would it change what and how much you ate that day?

It wouldnt really change anything, seeing as I eat what I want, when I want.

waynes world

recently, i saw waynes world for the first time.
yes, i'd never seen it since sunday night.

now, after watching it several times, i believe its time to make the top 10 waynes world quotes.


10. *holds out dixie cup* If you're going to puke, puke into this.
-Garth Algar

9. And the worst part is, I NEVER LEARNED HOW TO READ
- Wayne Campbell

8. Ribbed for her pleasure. EEEEEWWW.
-Garth Algar

7. Yes, Pete, it is. In fact , it's pronounced "mill-e-wah-que" which is Algonquin for "the good land."
-Alice Cooper

6. Just because we broke up, it dosent mean we can't date!

5. If he was an icecream flavour, he'd be Pralines and Dick
- Wayne Campbell

4. In many ways, Next Generation is superior, but it will never be as recognised as the original series. O....kay then, you do that.
- Wayne Campbell and Benjamin Whateverson

3. I was not aware of that.!.
- Wayne Campbell

2. *To a body builder headbanger* Exxxxcuse me, I would like to get through please. *Tazers*
- Garth Algar

1. Hey Mr.Donut Man, who's trying to kill you? I dunno, but they better not.
-Mr Donut Man (A.K.A Garth Algar)

Yes, some of them are arguable, but I'm very distracted. My dog is currently crying in my lap, jumping on the keyboard right when I'm typing.

Writer's Block: Most inspiring teacher

Who is the most inspiring teacher you ever had and why? How often do you think about what they taught you? How has it changed your life?

Mr. Hill, hands down. He's in a rock band, a kobuki theatre troupe and manages to be a really caring teacher at the same time. If I have any troubles, he helps me through them, and he helped our whole english class through the stress of exam block, and made us piss ourselves laughing at his quirky antics and crazy geisha dancing. I won't ever forget him, and he sticks out among the other permanently PMSing, lazy teachers that I am so used to.